my dad left for a business trip this morning, and i watched him go with the unsettling feeling that he is going to die.

my father needs an oxygen compressor, which is basically a thing that filters air into its components, and sends oxygen to him via cannula. He is going to new jersey, and due to a few stupid complications, he cannot take his compressor, nor his oxygen tanks with him. whenever he goes for a long time without his oxygen, he turns blue because his respiratory system is incapable of providing his body with enough oxygen to keep its organs functioning.

i don't want my daddy to die.